I know it’s been quite a while since the last time I did something special for you. All I have for now is this letter to tell you what I can’t say in personal. Back then when I was staring I admired you just because of your voice and good looks. It was just a hobby to listen to your voice and that was it. As time went by knowing more about your likes, dislikes and behavior seemed to have made it’s impact on me. You kept your feet on the ground even though everyone knew who you are. I’ve never heard you complain about anything although the people around you thought it’s impossible. You just did what you have to do. I slowly learned that you were not just an idol but you were a person who cared for others before taking care of yourself. And that made me fall for you.
Yes I’ve never met you before but if feels it’s like you’re here with me. You never fail to make me smile when I’m down. You filled my heart with joy without knowing. You were there when I felt like no one was standing by me. Your little gestures made my rainy days warmer. You sang me lullabies to ease me during those sleepless nights. You inspired me to do things I never thought I can do. You were always there for me. But there are times when I can’t help but miss you.
'I wonder what he’s doing right now~ Is he eating properly? I hope he’s not stressing himself too much...' Those are just some things that cross my mind when there are days that I can do is think of you. My days didn’t feel complete when I don’t hear your voice or just see that innocent smile of yours. I know this might sound a bit weird but you’re the first thing that comes in my mind when I wake up in the morning. I find it awkward too because my first priority back then was breakfast. Not that I’m complaining about it in fact I couldn’t be happier about it.
The thought of being with you have never failed to cross my mind. Waking up with your arms around me. Watching you in your innocent slumber until you wake up. Cooking your breakfast and watching you head off to work knowing at the end of the day you’ll find me here waiting for your return. No matter how blissful it sounds I know it’s still a dream.
I regret that I doubted your actions sometimes. I couldn’t help it. Jealousy is manipulative and cunning. I was selfish to think of myself without thinking about you first. I’m sorry if you have to get hurt with my selfish ways.
Reality can be hard but I must accept the fact that someday the time will come that we have to part ways. I hope that you’ll find someone who could love you as much as I had loved you. If someone asks me one day if I ever regretted loving you I won’t say I did cause I enjoyed all the happiness and pain it caused me. Falling head over heels over you was the best thing I had ever felt in my life. Always remember this. No matter what happens, you’ll always have a part of my heart so please treasure it.
I love you.
A/N: sorry if the ending is a bit off~ this letter sounds so streotypical~
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